Only the beginning ( i started at high school, and i thought many wonderful times and friends would await me there.)
I've Got My Eye on You (I found someone who interested me romantically and was carefully watching them.)
First Love (I fall deeply in love with them. I had never felt this way before. The thoughts of him day and night, the anxiety i got whenever he was around, the act of talking to him made me so happy. I was head over heels. The only thing is, it started to take control of my life and brought out a side of me who i had never seen before)
Jealousy (I get jealous of anything or anyone that gets more attention with them than me. I get very hurt whenever he spends no time with me. I do everything i can to try and be noticed, but most times i end up making a complete fool of myself. Loving him came with so much hardship, but i was struck by blind ambition. The only thing that mattered now was him.)
Deception (After being hurt and neglected over and over many times, i realize that this love is false. But i continue to deceive and lie to myself, because i'm afraid of what will happen to me if i actually face it. At this point my greatest fear is him telling me he does not want me. I'm not sure i can go on with life if i hear this confession. So i continued to lie to myself everyday. Acquiring more and more hurt and feelings of neglect along the way.
Show Me The Way ( I become lost and don't know what to do. I want to do what's best for myself, but i also want to fulfill my desire for love. I don't know which path to take. I want someone else to show me the path to take becuase i just don't know which way to go and i don't know how my judgements will affect me. I think i knew deep down what i should do, but im scared.)
Love is Doin' It To Me (Love finally breaks me down and i get my heart broken. So much time wasted on one person, trying to get him to love me. All that work, all that pain, all the trying, all for nothing. I was so depressed i could not eat or sleep. The worst part i guess was having to see his face at school again. And him not being sorry or even feel some sort of guuilt for destroying my life. Nights turned into days, days into weeks, weeks into months of just feeling sorry for myself and crying over love i guess i really never had. Then, finally i knew what i had to do.
Putting it all together (With the help of my friends and family, they aid me in picking up the pieces of my shattered life and putting them back together. It took time and work, but eventually i raised a stable and steady condition. Not a day went by that i didn't think about it, but i knew i was going to be okay, and that life would get much better than this.
People Who Care (I finally realize the people who really matter in my life. The ones who have been with me there through the good and the bad. Who have held my hand and cried with me when i was in my worst stages. I finally recognize the love i have for these people, and that is the most powerful love there is.)
Music Is Magic (After a year of trying to figure out where to go from here, i finally find my true passion for music. That was my purpose in life. To try and send a message to victims damaged by the world's cruel ways through the magic of music. Music has such a meaning that runs deeper than just notes and lyrics. With my music and my loved ones, I continued my life, living to the best ability.)